=] ...不愿回来这了....

好一段时间没有上来这里写日记了....
开始觉得...每当回来这里，脑里会开始出现以前的一切一切的悲的画面....
会想回以前的事情和人物~ ....

算了....回来吧...
昨天26/11 ....跟他'BAKA' 去了，甲洞加油站，the curve ....and the look out point at the ampang...
It is a nice place ....
Because we have later ....
So ..go there have a look at there de landscape ....
The place is really very nice>< ... I love there .... There is really very relax at there ...>< ... I guess ...i will be go there again=} heheheh .... Thanks him alot to bring me go anywhere ... That is a unforgettable thing ...=}...love ... Actually he is a nice guy .... But ... Only his temper problem only ....wulalala...xD .. That is my first time to go those place =} .... Wahahahah ..... Enjoy=} .... Relationship with him is just a friend =} .... Any special feeling with him ? ...xDhahha ... Sure have the special want lah ... But i should control it ... If not ...it is unbelievable thing lai loh .......xD hahahag Whole day is keeping to sms ... You say ...it will never have any feeling on?!?!? ... Hey! Don't kidding lah .... Unless his heart have other1 ...or ... Im the very CHA girl .... ....... HAHA>< .....

心乱乱~

...
又不知道怎么了~
心里乱乱的...总是感觉今天的聊天~ ...
开始有点不自在了><.... ... 彼此的话题再次越来越少了... 又是一个不愉快的事情的开始了！！ 我讨厌这感觉！！！ ....... 我知道你不希望喜欢上我...因为XX... 哈哈哈~ ... 其实我都知道的...只是不必说出口... 有时候装下呆傻... 对自己是有义处的... 哈哈~ ... 不必做太聪明得人... 那是个很愚蠢的事~！ ... 不管他人怎么说..只有自己真正明白，了解就好了=] ... ^^¥... 心里有个我超级讨厌的预感~... 是关于我的生日...说>>
我最终会是自己一个人过>~< ....== 一过了自己的生日...你即将会离开我的生活线~... 我不希望这一切会实现！！！... 我很自私... 明明你不属于我的.. 我却不把你放开... 明明知道你是不属于我的... 但~.... 我不愿洒脱你~离开你~... 对不起... 我知道....你不会陪伴我太久的... 過了那天...你就會離開我... 我有預感的.... >~< ....
謝謝你....非常的謝謝你的一切一切.....

memories~*

为了什么而哭泣了....
你再次的叫我关你电话~
其实我真的很火很气！！！
为什么你要这样？！？！
明明是你弄得我不爽的！
为什么调反来是我疼回你...但...
却的回来的却是个弄的我更不爽的心情！
你的不爽语气！你的不爽...一直叫我关电话！
为什么哦？！？。。。。

HEY!!!
Wait a minute!!!!
We are just a friend!
Why i want care alots thing of you ...
Why i want mind a lots things of you?!? ...
Why i want angry you ...
Why i want cry for you ...
Why i want go tam back you ?!?!? ...
What the fucking happen now?!?!?!!!! ....
Hey!!!!

真不明白....
你是不属于我的！！！
醒醒吧！！！。。。...
.....

我是特地讲回我的ex de ....
就是要看看你有什么反应~！
但....
原来我再次自挖坟墓了==！！！
.....
you are nothing feeling ...
Because of you are not any feeling with me ...
I very curious~ ...
We are talking so long times around 2weeks more ago ...
Everydays keep in sms and call....
You really nothing feeling on me ?!? O.o?!? ...
I really very bad....
Really have not some feeling to make you love me or like me ?!?
Haizzzz.....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bad moody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¡!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

为什么我却不能像以往的我洒脱点呢？！？！

。。。
我很愚蠢！真得很愚蠢！！
愚蠢到~！！！
都不知道为什么自己为什么要这么在乎他！
明明知道这个男人不会属于我的！
为什么就不能洒脱点！！！

你不停的叫我挂你电话！
你知道的！
你知道我不会的！为什么你要这样叫我做？！
说真的！
我真的有好几刻我真得很想挂！
但~
心理的不舍的力量~ 真得很强！~！

最后~
我忍不住了！
想哭泣了！
我就是这么脆弱！

我真得很愚蠢到在想~
挂掉这通电话！
我关上手机！
你会否上网来找我~
会否在我开会电话的那刻~是不可思议的快乐？~
我愚蠢到幻想着一切不可能的事情！
我真的！！！！！ 啊！~！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

明知道答案是什么的！
为什么我还是那么愚蠢的制造机会来伤害自己叻！！！？！

....
为了什么而这么的在乎你？！
你依然还很想念你得EX...
但~
我却无能为力的！
EX 是最难解决的事情~
难道。。。
我就没有想念吗？！

那你就错的很了~
口说不在乎~
心里怎么可能不怀念他叻？！。。。还很想念他人tim 。。。
多么想他回到我身边叻！

或许我就是这样的人~！
不要多我太好吧~
不要这么在乎我吧~
不然~ 我真地会爱上你的~
( 不过不是每一个人！, 也是要看感觉的！) ....

.............
对不起~
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


现在的我..
期待着电话在开记得那刻，是否会有什么惊喜~
。。。
对不起~
我正在逃避~！
我不敢面对现实~
因为这个~
会把我的生活带回平静~

因为你~ 我的生活改变不少~
因为你~ 陪伴我度过寂寞的时刻~
因为你~ 每一个晚上都在渴望~和等待你的来电~
因为你~ 我变得如此开朗~
因为你~ 我不怕寂寞了~
因为你~ .....的一切一切令我回到从前快乐的我~

心里在想~
如果没有了你~没有了你的呵护~没有了你的来电~没有了你的信息~没有了你的联络~
以后的每个晚上~以后的电话~是否会静到~像没开电话一样呢？？？

。。。。




我不希望下一篇 daily 的 title 是 >没有你的日子<~!!!!!!

无助 fenniko ~*

potato uncle...xD

31/10/2010 ...5~6~9pm ...
You are coming to rawang ...
But i was around a area no line ...
So ...never can get all your message >< sad .~ ... After work is around 7 already .... When i go to the carpark ... You are calling me ..to told me... Now you are around rawang here .... I always ask you ...want i go there to see you or accompany you ma? ... At least you also say don't want ... But ... My heart is can't to put it down ...so ...i have to go found you ... Wulalal .... Blablabla.....SHIP.... AT least .. We have to see we each other .... But i never go out my car .... You have your friend to accompany come here .... Wow.... After ...blablabla.....SHIP~! .... Cause my parents is non stop to calling me go back eat dinner with them .... They are waiting me ....>< .... Then ...i fly car to to back and eat a little ...then go bath and change shirt to McD to find him ... but ... Ay least ...i was late .... When i go out from my home to calling you ... But you told me .. You are going out tol ... Haizzz ...speechless ...=X .... Disappointed ....>< .. Ship~~* ```` ...after that around12.30 ... You are calling me ... Actually you want to go out with friend ... But your friend was tired to sleep liao ... Then ...you are very hungry ....xD.. But outside that wall light is going something problem ... You are scare like he'll ....xD... Hahahah ... Then ...i have to accompany you until you don't scare to take the food to eat ..xD... Hahajah ....so cute loh you ..xD When you never call come ..i was tired me like pig already ... Bit after your call and accompany ... I was feeling very jing shen liao ...wulalal ....xD .... I was ask you ... Why today suddenly come to rawang de ? Come to do what oh? ...xD ... You are told me ...want to see me ... But ... When i had to meet me ... Did you have disappointed? ...hahaha ... If i have to go out on car ... I think you will run away veryvery fast ..xD ....hahaa ... Actually ... Your suddenly come really so surprise loh...xD... But i not really know ...why you will come o rawang to do what de ...>~< ...
haizz ...


You are bring me a lot happy ...smile...happiness ...xD
Never feel alone ,when have you accompany ....
Thanks you baka bbei =)
Hagaga =) ....
we are know each other on the Facebook =] ...
It is 22/10/2010..in the early morning ...xD ...first is chat at the Facebook prevent message ...
then you ask me to give ....you number ...
Haaha ...feel lonely ...
And have to chat before with you ..xD...so ..i give it already ....
Hahahah ...
Thankies you alot and alot ....


By,
Fenniko =} ....22.15 1/11/2010