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today 18.04.2010 10.02a.m .....
i was start to be with him BJ .....
he tell me that ...
he was later to told me .....
although he want tell me at yesterday ..
but he was have music party didnt join us to go kepong ....

however ....
i was accept to be with him ...
but ....
have some blur feeling now ..T^T
i was feel i like his friend more than couple ....
many people say that ...
THAT beginning of the affair is always sweet...

but ~ why my romance like not a romance ?!
huh T^T
...............haizzzz~
i thinking many STP things now ...
OMG ....
have some feel i was wrong to accept it ...
but ...
how come T^T
i cant suddenly like this to say break with him ...
OMG ....

i have a VERY VERY NOOB thinking now ...
i'm start to thinking now ...
what reason i want to tell him when we break up ...>~<...
STP!!!!

i'm regret now ....T^T SHIT!!!!

will this relation stay how long ?
i really dunno ...

i feel ...
that not very longer relation ...
maybe ...that is not longer that 1 MONTH~!!!
maybe break up at 1 week ~ sss~
haizzzzzzz

bless me ba ....

feel scary to keep near with him again ....
T~T sorry~