T.T

i feel  i want to leave this working place & the company that i have now ....T.T
i fell some hard & hard to breathe at here ....
is too much KUI ZHE ....what the HELL TxT ....
i know ...
i will be FIRE SOON ....
i'm still is a trainee ....
so ....FIRE ....will at everysecond be that ....T.T

i know i cant done my a part future at here ....
because i know i'm that stupid & idiot ....

every minutes ....i keep telling myself ....i hope ...i wont do WRONG thing at everytimes ....
& keep concentrate ...to do things ....
but .....i'm FAIL .....
i give wrong message to customer .....


& the CCTV keep looking for us doing things ....
LoL ....
how the STP that boss i have ....
a bit freedom also didnt ....
i really hope i can leave here ....& get  a ...really good future & the job to me ....
this is my 1st job ....
i know ....i will fail at this job ....
i wont work this job until end ...wont forever ..wont until ...i die ....
i know ...
i wont ...WONT ....

work at here ...really have a BIG BIG pressure .....
really~


i also dunno ...that time i choice this way to go ...that is true for me or WRONG way to me ....
T,T
WHAT THE STUPID WORD>>
the success people do that what they should to do ....~
WHAT THE FAULT IS THIS ....T.T

i really dun think so jor ....
cause ....
i feel ....
if a job that you unlike & unhappy ~
then ....why we need to continue & again & again  work to ?~
huh?!~
why?! ~


this ....just a 1st step i need to confront .....TxT
i need how to continue confront all that after ? ....huhuhuhuh>~<
原来～
外面的社会是这么的可怕的～
有点无法再生存下去了～
TxT
真的TxT ....
那些窥则我真的不敢相信我自己能在那过trainee 这1关～ T~T ～
更别说做几年～

haizzz~
我还能怎样呢？
我真正想要的～其实是什么？
haizzz~

i dont want working at weekend ....you know?! ~
no have a freedom ....
自己绑死自己在那里～><～
haizzz~

好漫长的时间～
每天想着～看着时钟。。。想着还有多久才能放工～
~T.T~
真的很无聊～
时间真的很难过～
T.T~

but ....
i know ...i need to insist on it ...><~ +u ba ~
FIRE jiu FIRE lah ~
i still have LONG LONG~ LONG~~~ time to go ~ ><~

* ~ night ~*