friday~saturday 1/5

wulala~
time is running so fast ...
i have to go back MT working from 2/5 sunday start ....
sometime will feel like to stay at BR ...
that's because Angel Jie Jie ....
she have at there ...
but ...going soon ....she want to leave ....
today is her last day at BR working ....
so ...
when she leave there ...sure will very confuse ....

aizzz~
however ...
is now give me chance to go back BR ....
i also do not hope it ....
i hope i can stay at MT ...not that confuse ...
because BR that all therapist is ....=X ....
the coming that C ...i dun like her anymore ...
but sometime chat is okay okay jek .....

haha ~

okay ~
tomorrow sat 1/5 have to work at TESCO 9.30 ~ 1/2.00p.m ....
haha~ 4 hours lah ~
but i also dunno want to go where >,< ..... aiyaya ~ & the Alex ... we said at last week go watvh movie at friday ... but he never find me ... so ... i just dunno want care him lo .... that is your problem lak .... hahahah ~ today feel want to go do hair ....facial .....& the shopping .... but .... feel some not enough time to go .... will i dare alone drive car to go TS ? .. hahahah~ dunno also ... never try it ... just have to try before ...alone go TS ...take KTM ...>< wulalal ~ & i have alone go 1u lah ..... 1u i very know well about PJ ...... KL not same ...><~ luan SHUI ~.................~

ahaha~
i to go out now ....
start my plan lo ....

BUAY ~

＊～Coincidence～＊

today i was boring at home ....
after fetch grandpo go to farmasi ... & have a breakfast =]

after that ..have to go MT find Ruby do eye &ｎｅｃｋ　ｔｒ．　ｆｏｒ　ｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｕｓｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｔａｆｆ　ｓｅｒｖｉｓ　ｖｏｕ．　ｔｏ　ｄｏ　．．．．．＆ｇｏ　ＢＲ　ｄｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｕｒｕｔ　．．．
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ｇｏｏｄ　ｎｉｇｈｔ．．．．　ｆｒｉｅｎｄ　～＊

heart~*

心有点乱~
心有点复杂~
心在为谁忐忑~
心~ 你是怎么了？

感觉很不对经~
少了他的早安信息~
少了他的名字~
少了联络~
少了他~

2天半的时间~真让我不知所措....
但....我不会为他，再跟他了....
因为。。。。不想在伤害他了......
我知道他是真的伤心了.....
对不起他T^T~
是我不好.....

就算我还喜欢你....
但...我还是要选择离开你....
因为我真的不会珍惜你的。。。
只会把你弄得更伤得.....
对不起~

2 & half day ~

20-04-2010 11.47 .....i'm start to become a single ........

i'm single now ....
& i have hurt he some much ...
他很坚持的笑~
不知他是真的还是坚强出来的~
早点的离别~ 会对彼此好些吧~
不要伤得他太深才来离别~
这样~ 我不更不舍得吧,....哈哈~

虽然在一起的时间真的有够短的~
但~
真得很谢谢他的关心~
不过~...或许我们彼此真的不适合....
所以趁早吧~

真的觉得有闷得~
2 年了~
没真正谈恋爱了...
才知道...世界变了很多....hahaha
搞笑吧.....>x<.... 希望他真的不伤心吧... 祝愿他幸福。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。sorry ...alex~ take it easy , leave it hard.... easy come , hard to go ..... haha~ 我的心情....是啦~ 我有哭了.... 其实说真的...我事实上是否爱他？ >>>>其实我只是喜欢而已...但...不深...真得很浅而已....

那~ 为什么我会哭叻?....
...................................=X

today ~ start ~*

today 18.04.2010 10.02a.m .....
i was start to be with him BJ .....
he tell me that ...
he was later to told me .....
although he want tell me at yesterday ..
but he was have music party didnt join us to go kepong ....

however ....
i was accept to be with him ...
but ....
have some blur feeling now ..T^T
i was feel i like his friend more than couple ....
many people say that ...
THAT beginning of the affair is always sweet...

but ~ why my romance like not a romance ?!
huh T^T
...............haizzzz~
i thinking many STP things now ...
OMG ....
have some feel i was wrong to accept it ...
but ...
how come T^T
i cant suddenly like this to say break with him ...
OMG ....

i have a VERY VERY NOOB thinking now ...
i'm start to thinking now ...
what reason i want to tell him when we break up ...>~<...
STP!!!!

i'm regret now ....T^T SHIT!!!!

will this relation stay how long ?
i really dunno ...

i feel ...
that not very longer relation ...
maybe ...that is not longer that 1 MONTH~!!!
maybe break up at 1 week ~ sss~
haizzzzzzz

bless me ba ....

feel scary to keep near with him again ....
T~T sorry~

wulala~=]

wohoo....

happy now .....
i was told my BOSS that .....
i want to go back to other Branch that she had ...
hahah ....

feel happy that she would like to heard that & understand & let me to go ...
heheh ...
feel that my boss not that bad lah ...hahah
sometime sometimes lah ....=]

whatever ...
who those Good for me ...i sure will do good things back to them =]
hehehe ....

that is my style ....
wulala ......

haizzz.....
but my lovery colleague RUBY .....
i told her that i can go back to working with her ...
but ...
she scary ...the boss will ask her to go THERE work ....
again ....we leave each bother ...T^T.......................NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i also scary about that lah!!!!!
cant!!!!!
@^@

*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~GOD BLESS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
.....................................
& the another way that .....
now ...15 april 2010.....
14 was gone just few minutes .....
i never to told him that he send to me that thing is ....=X ....
he also never told me anythings about that .....
we just quietly to past the time ...
hahah ....

14 is ...i hope i start love the DATE that i like ,..haha ........NOOB hor ? ....=D ahhahahha
.....................
hope nobody know about that lah ..=]
i dun want ppl ask me too much about its .....
////////////////..........................wohoo ....

is going to ...............be .........@~@ ......( dunno what i saying) ....(sorry)

it is So COMPLICATING thing is Coming on now T^T

.....
haizzzzzzzzz~
is the saturday start ...
we have meet again ...

no wonder how ....
i was still have a little bit feeling on him ....
but ....you know ....
i dunno what i scaryING at here ....
scary this scare that ....=.=....

haizzzz

is it want to start thing relation ?
STP feeling now on ...........><

i dunno he know it or not ...
the thing that he yesterday send to me ....
that is 1 pair thing ..
but ....maybe ...i thought he dunno it is 1 pair ....
& it just is a normal thing ....

haha=.=~

is have some blur blur ..........

feel want to try with him ....
but ...have some waiting him say that words ...
but ....feel some scary to start ...
hahaha....
really very stp!!!!

haizzzzzzz~

he never will tim me until end
haizzzz~
stp ppl ...T^T


Nite.......
to be continue next post ...next day ...=]~

Resignation Letter ?!

Increasingly not interested in this work do not want to do it anymore ~
Rules every day more T ~ T
Do not know why I came here for what to do ~

The Boss have to ask me at last 2 days ....
i have to go check stock at her room ....
we are 2 person separate at her room ....
she have to ask .....>>>
will you like this future in your life ?
( ....my heart thinking ....can i said NO...I DONT LIKE?!) .....i know i just can answer her ....that >>>
still okay ......>~< ..........haizzzzz her staffs all is going to leave her loh .... haizzzz... that is 1 by 1 to leave this company ..... how about me ? .... my best friend she have to contract 1 year must work for this company .... so ...she cant to leave .... haizz.~ .... my cousin need a assistant at APM for her .... but .... it is very waste .... mine 3 more months beautician & the beautician slip ..... ...............haizzzzzzz................... at the last few weeks..... my parents had to asking me .... did you think it ....would you want to change your work ?... find something that free than this working time lah .... or how that you like ..... i had no answer them at that time .... because i also dunno what that i want to .....><
i feel i HAVENT FUTURE at this company working ....T~T

actually i always have to thinking it foe my self ....
am i want to change job to do ....
but ....
i never get answer T~T ....
haizzzzzzzz~


& that ....
my cousin ask me want to do her assistant .....
i going to ask my dad ....
my tears was no control falling down again ....

i feel when i going to do BR there work ....
i was everydays crying to go back my home ....& all ....
it is too pressure hard working for me ....
T~T
i cant patience anymore .....

everydays have no mood to go work at all ....

my dad was telling me ....
whatever that you like .....
Should you wish to make good strategic for your self loh .....
that is your own future .......
dun regret anymore oh .....~
...........................................=X..................................

i have no idea for his talking about ~.........................~

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz





I would like to do small fish not big vat of fish in the fish tank ~
I have no expectations ~
I only hope that fortunately had a happy life happy blessing is enough for me . . . . =]

.............................to be continue

my live april 2010 & the not finish LETTER~

02-04-2010 Friday
So fast ….1 month ago …..
I dunno when I will send the letter to my Boss …..
My company here 1 by 1 go away from this company …..
How about me ?
I want to leave here also ….
But …..i have a car to pay loan every months ….
Cant so easy leave & find the other job T.T…….
Start from April ….i going to BR working for 1 month? 2 month? Or forever ?
I dunno yet …..=(
I hope i can leave there as fast as i can …..
Feel want to cry at there everydays ~
Very big pressure ….
That not my stand to go ….
I hope I can to do a normal people that I cant to do ….you know ?!
I still a 19 years old girl ….
Really need to force to do that ?! HuH!!!
我真的不懂自己能撑得多久了～
这～ 真的是我应该去做的吗？
每天以泪洗脸～ 有何必要吗？！
话不可那样说！
不是你想要的就要去做～
你勉强一个人不喜欢去做他不喜欢的事情～
你难道觉得她很开心吗？！
应该去做让他们喜欢去做他们喜欢的事！
这样人人都开心的这份工啊！
我还是喜欢自自在在的过生活!
不用每天去到怕这个customer 怕那个customers 投诉～埋怨～ 说假话～ 等等的东西～
我不想！
每天带着个假面具去做工～
Customer service / consultener /….BlaBlaBla 都希望在做！

>>>>>
JOB…still have a lots ….
But ….Family ….
I just have 1 ~
I cant keep it working at everydays ….& not time to accompany my family at all ….
It is too long time to working…..
I cant do that again …..
My familys sadly form me ….
It is too hard working for me ….
I dunt care at the normal stuff to start ….
I still young…..
That not a really time to do that you forve me to do !
I like that what I like to do …..more than ….what should I do .!.
That all nobody would know who should to do what & what !
Just follow that what I like to do ….that is enough for my life …..

..........................................................to be continue~*