my live april 2010 & the not finish LETTER~

02-04-2010 Friday
So fast ….1 month ago …..
I dunno when I will send the letter to my Boss …..
My company here 1 by 1 go away from this company …..
How about me ?
I want to leave here also ….
But …..i have a car to pay loan every months ….
Cant so easy leave & find the other job T.T…….
Start from April ….i going to BR working for 1 month? 2 month? Or forever ?
I dunno yet …..=(
I hope i can leave there as fast as i can …..
Feel want to cry at there everydays ~
Very big pressure ….
That not my stand to go ….
I hope I can to do a normal people that I cant to do ….you know ?!
I still a 19 years old girl ….
Really need to force to do that ?! HuH!!!
我真的不懂自己能撑得多久了～
这～ 真的是我应该去做的吗？
每天以泪洗脸～ 有何必要吗？！
话不可那样说！
不是你想要的就要去做～
你勉强一个人不喜欢去做他不喜欢的事情～
你难道觉得她很开心吗？！
应该去做让他们喜欢去做他们喜欢的事！
这样人人都开心的这份工啊！
我还是喜欢自自在在的过生活!
不用每天去到怕这个customer 怕那个customers 投诉～埋怨～ 说假话～ 等等的东西～
我不想！
每天带着个假面具去做工～
Customer service / consultener /….BlaBlaBla 都希望在做！

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JOB…still have a lots ….
But ….Family ….
I just have 1 ~
I cant keep it working at everydays ….& not time to accompany my family at all ….
It is too long time to working…..
I cant do that again …..
My familys sadly form me ….
It is too hard working for me ….
I dunt care at the normal stuff to start ….
I still young…..
That not a really time to do that you forve me to do !
I like that what I like to do …..more than ….what should I do .!.
That all nobody would know who should to do what & what !
Just follow that what I like to do ….that is enough for my life …..

..........................................................to be continue~*