我要开始慢慢记载下我们的记忆~*

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2010 is gone =) ...2011 is a good new good starting ...xD

elala ~
bless me please ,...xD ....#^~^# ...
heheheh ~
im feel happiness and enjoy love life now ~
its amazing that over my thinking ~
i love him alot alot alot now ~ WoW....
he is a smart guy ...gentle guy ....& funny guy ~

that we are sure ....he is my future husband =P
love him very very much ~
no matter what happen ~
i never will give up you in my life ~
i love you my dear baobei laogong mr.NG ''KIM FOK''....xD

its is a birthday, christmas , new year is he accompany me pasted those happy day ..
and make those good and sweet memory of us ....
thanks you alot ...=*

 this is the cake he send for me in 15th Dec night ~ 

xD....

that is very specially ~ 

he call me said he was waiting me at my house outside to go out have a dinner with him ...

then ~ 

when i go out ...

i saw it ....

he ON his car de LED light and blablabla ....<3...feel very very nice ><...

after that we have a dinner at sunway ...xD 

then go to Desa Park City had a walk and a look ...xD =*

it is a very romantic place ....

feeling will softly at there=)

not more malay and india guys ~ 

Next day 16th Dec'2010,

he had fetch me to go to I-City ....

its a nice place to looking the Light Design ....

sweet and romantic too ....

but ...lot malay guys ...>

after have a dinner at somewhere ....

17th Dec'2010 

i had to go with friend to Pavilion ....

to buy the Perfume to him for the christmas Present ...xD 

 its DKNY  couple Pefume Set ....worth RM 400+++++

hhahaha~ 

i dunno he love the smell of it or not ....

so i buy the smaller 1 ....

wulala~ 

it make me poor ....~><~ 

but ~ 

its Deserve geh ..xD <3 

that while and pink colour i always using it geh ....

so ...

buy it together loh =P

the Christmas eve we have go Genting Highland~ 

when reach there is just 6p.m only ~ 

its very early ....

nothing to do ..

just walk around that all place of Genting ~ 

then after have a dinner there .....

is just 8p.m >,< ...sienzzz~ 

then my dear said go back K.L loh ,....

cause Genting that night also didnt put the Firework ....xD 

...........at Kepong celebrated it ...xD 

the Present actually i put at his car behind sofa there ...

want to say when he reach home just ask he go look his car behind there de ....

but ~ 

suddenly ....

we have to ready to go out walking ....when he want lock his car ....

he was go to behind there find the bottle of the water ...

then ....he saw it ..>,<....aiyak >< 

out of my thinking ...>< 

then he saw it ~ 

smile smile at there ...xD 

and i was gam gai & some unhappy at there ...

cause didnt give he the surprise ...><

after go back to the car ...

we have siting at the car in side to waiting the 12a.m and the firework at Kepong there ....

....

he say that really got some surprise that have a bag at behind there loh ...

then ..

he was had to ready the present to me ...

is the silver necklace ....

...

i also get surprise when he take the present come out ~

cause i thought he have not to buy anything to me ~ 

cause i making he poor liao ~ 

always go out and eat ...petro all is he pay off all ~><~ 

sorry dear ....

thanks you very much ><~ muackkkk=*~

last day of the year 2010 and the 1st second of 2011 ...

we have to go out together too ...xD 

.......

........................

*~ to be continue ~*

今天的你变了....
我可否用我年命来换回以前甜蜜的你呢？
我好害怕...
我真的很害怕失去你...
我承诺自己的。。。不管再怎么生气。。。再怎么不开心。。不爽...都不可以说出那2个字...
一旦说出了...再也不能回头了...
我一定不会说的。。。
再怎么伤心...再怎么不开心我都不会说的 。。。
我珍惜宝贝你也能。。。
其实我要的很简单...只是想要你对我坦白...
只是想你在不开心的时候告诉我...
我不想问你的时候...你都每次的说"没有~没有~"。。。。
我只是想做你的爱人来了解多一点你...
我不想什么都不知道的我....
我就是要这么简单...

谈恋爱就是这样...
把事情坦白...
让伴侣来分担。。。
不要什么事情都藏在心里...
只会把你自己避疯了...
....

今天的你...
没有对我说过一句真心的想你。。爱你了。。。
心情变得很糟糕...
爱一直的胡思乱想。。。。
一直不断的流泪...
为什么我要这样？！？！？。。。因为我很在乎你丫！！！

真希望能与你好好来谈谈>~<

现在是我将久以来...最最最痛苦和痛哭的一次...
鼻子已塞了...眼泪不停的落下....
这次是我那么久以来...
最不知所措得一次...
我最讨厌冷战....
我最讨厌你说没有...
我最讨厌你对我说'不知道要跟我说什么~没有东西说~''！！！
这是多么的伤人...
在一起那么久...每一天你都是会心情不好...不开心...不爽...
每一天！！！都是这样...
但...我还是对你不理不弃...
因为我觉得...你是我的宝贝...
所以我会一直的爱你...
让自己用完所有的点子来逗你开心...
不会丢下你不理....
因为这是个女友必做的...因为我真心的爱你..
不想让你不开心...

有好几次都想发回你脾气....
但...最后我没有这么做...
因为我知道....如果我发回你脾气...
这一切会变得很糟很糟很糟~~~~~~~

如果这一次..
你真的放弃了...我真的真的很失望...
你回头想想...再抬头看看...会有多少了女孩...是会这么的不要自尊来逗你..
会有多少的女孩不会发回你脾气....
因为我从来没有对一个男孩那么的好 ...
那么的体贴...
那么的不要自尊来逗你开心...
那么舍得的花费在你身上...
我从来没有这样做过...

我会这么做...
都是真心的特别爱你...
想让一切都给你...
让你做我的最后一个。。。
我都是觉得很值得的....
......................#

但...那通电话...
你关了...
让我跌到谷地了...


你的不回复...
是什么意思？！？！？

是否能让我看见奇迹？？？？
看见你的回复....

=} ...remember the date 6/12/2010

.....remember the date 6/12/2010....2.30am ...
...he make me cried ....>< .... I know he very care about it ... ...but ... I have try my best to be that liao mah ... Im sorry>< .....=[ .... So ... That's why i would said that loh ... Cause i know you will be care it ...and other people how to say about xx loh ...zzz ...>< ....
haizz.....but ...
However ....
I hope i can do it ...
And hope you are the least .....=} .....

看人脸色><！！！

为什么要这样？！！
为什么我的生活不能再安定一点吗？！？
做工又要看别人脸色来做人！
回到家又要看脸色！
Fucker!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!
都已经长大了！
就不能松一点了吗？！！！
何必这么操心吗！！！
不是说我心在福中不知福！！！
是你们太过度了吧！！！
，。。。。！！！！！！！！！！。。。。。。。。。

=] ...不愿回来这了....

好一段时间没有上来这里写日记了....
开始觉得...每当回来这里，脑里会开始出现以前的一切一切的悲的画面....
会想回以前的事情和人物~ ....

算了....回来吧...
昨天26/11 ....跟他'BAKA' 去了，甲洞加油站，the curve ....and the look out point at the ampang...
It is a nice place ....
Because we have later ....
So ..go there have a look at there de landscape ....
The place is really very nice>< ... I love there .... There is really very relax at there ...>< ... I guess ...i will be go there again=} heheheh .... Thanks him alot to bring me go anywhere ... That is a unforgettable thing ...=}...love ... Actually he is a nice guy .... But ... Only his temper problem only ....wulalala...xD .. That is my first time to go those place =} .... Wahahahah ..... Enjoy=} .... Relationship with him is just a friend =} .... Any special feeling with him ? ...xDhahha ... Sure have the special want lah ... But i should control it ... If not ...it is unbelievable thing lai loh .......xD hahahag Whole day is keeping to sms ... You say ...it will never have any feeling on?!?!? ... Hey! Don't kidding lah .... Unless his heart have other1 ...or ... Im the very CHA girl .... ....... HAHA>< .....

心乱乱~

...
又不知道怎么了~
心里乱乱的...总是感觉今天的聊天~ ...
开始有点不自在了><.... ... 彼此的话题再次越来越少了... 又是一个不愉快的事情的开始了！！ 我讨厌这感觉！！！ ....... 我知道你不希望喜欢上我...因为XX... 哈哈哈~ ... 其实我都知道的...只是不必说出口... 有时候装下呆傻... 对自己是有义处的... 哈哈~ ... 不必做太聪明得人... 那是个很愚蠢的事~！ ... 不管他人怎么说..只有自己真正明白，了解就好了=] ... ^^¥... 心里有个我超级讨厌的预感~... 是关于我的生日...说>>
我最终会是自己一个人过>~< ....== 一过了自己的生日...你即将会离开我的生活线~... 我不希望这一切会实现！！！... 我很自私... 明明你不属于我的.. 我却不把你放开... 明明知道你是不属于我的... 但~.... 我不愿洒脱你~离开你~... 对不起... 我知道....你不会陪伴我太久的... 過了那天...你就會離開我... 我有預感的.... >~< ....
謝謝你....非常的謝謝你的一切一切.....

memories~*

为了什么而哭泣了....
你再次的叫我关你电话~
其实我真的很火很气！！！
为什么你要这样？！？！
明明是你弄得我不爽的！
为什么调反来是我疼回你...但...
却的回来的却是个弄的我更不爽的心情！
你的不爽语气！你的不爽...一直叫我关电话！
为什么哦？！？。。。。

HEY!!!
Wait a minute!!!!
We are just a friend!
Why i want care alots thing of you ...
Why i want mind a lots things of you?!? ...
Why i want angry you ...
Why i want cry for you ...
Why i want go tam back you ?!?!? ...
What the fucking happen now?!?!?!!!! ....
Hey!!!!

真不明白....
你是不属于我的！！！
醒醒吧！！！。。。...
.....

我是特地讲回我的ex de ....
就是要看看你有什么反应~！
但....
原来我再次自挖坟墓了==！！！
.....
you are nothing feeling ...
Because of you are not any feeling with me ...
I very curious~ ...
We are talking so long times around 2weeks more ago ...
Everydays keep in sms and call....
You really nothing feeling on me ?!? O.o?!? ...
I really very bad....
Really have not some feeling to make you love me or like me ?!?
Haizzzz.....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bad moody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¡!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

为什么我却不能像以往的我洒脱点呢？！？！

。。。
我很愚蠢！真得很愚蠢！！
愚蠢到~！！！
都不知道为什么自己为什么要这么在乎他！
明明知道这个男人不会属于我的！
为什么就不能洒脱点！！！

你不停的叫我挂你电话！
你知道的！
你知道我不会的！为什么你要这样叫我做？！
说真的！
我真的有好几刻我真得很想挂！
但~
心理的不舍的力量~ 真得很强！~！

最后~
我忍不住了！
想哭泣了！
我就是这么脆弱！

我真得很愚蠢到在想~
挂掉这通电话！
我关上手机！
你会否上网来找我~
会否在我开会电话的那刻~是不可思议的快乐？~
我愚蠢到幻想着一切不可能的事情！
我真的！！！！！ 啊！~！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

明知道答案是什么的！
为什么我还是那么愚蠢的制造机会来伤害自己叻！！！？！

....
为了什么而这么的在乎你？！
你依然还很想念你得EX...
但~
我却无能为力的！
EX 是最难解决的事情~
难道。。。
我就没有想念吗？！

那你就错的很了~
口说不在乎~
心里怎么可能不怀念他叻？！。。。还很想念他人tim 。。。
多么想他回到我身边叻！

或许我就是这样的人~！
不要多我太好吧~
不要这么在乎我吧~
不然~ 我真地会爱上你的~
( 不过不是每一个人！, 也是要看感觉的！) ....

.............
对不起~
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


现在的我..
期待着电话在开记得那刻，是否会有什么惊喜~
。。。
对不起~
我正在逃避~！
我不敢面对现实~
因为这个~
会把我的生活带回平静~

因为你~ 我的生活改变不少~
因为你~ 陪伴我度过寂寞的时刻~
因为你~ 每一个晚上都在渴望~和等待你的来电~
因为你~ 我变得如此开朗~
因为你~ 我不怕寂寞了~
因为你~ .....的一切一切令我回到从前快乐的我~

心里在想~
如果没有了你~没有了你的呵护~没有了你的来电~没有了你的信息~没有了你的联络~
以后的每个晚上~以后的电话~是否会静到~像没开电话一样呢？？？

。。。。




我不希望下一篇 daily 的 title 是 >没有你的日子<~!!!!!!

无助 fenniko ~*

potato uncle...xD

31/10/2010 ...5~6~9pm ...
You are coming to rawang ...
But i was around a area no line ...
So ...never can get all your message >< sad .~ ... After work is around 7 already .... When i go to the carpark ... You are calling me ..to told me... Now you are around rawang here .... I always ask you ...want i go there to see you or accompany you ma? ... At least you also say don't want ... But ... My heart is can't to put it down ...so ...i have to go found you ... Wulalal .... Blablabla.....SHIP.... AT least .. We have to see we each other .... But i never go out my car .... You have your friend to accompany come here .... Wow.... After ...blablabla.....SHIP~! .... Cause my parents is non stop to calling me go back eat dinner with them .... They are waiting me ....>< .... Then ...i fly car to to back and eat a little ...then go bath and change shirt to McD to find him ... but ... Ay least ...i was late .... When i go out from my home to calling you ... But you told me .. You are going out tol ... Haizzz ...speechless ...=X .... Disappointed ....>< .. Ship~~* ```` ...after that around12.30 ... You are calling me ... Actually you want to go out with friend ... But your friend was tired to sleep liao ... Then ...you are very hungry ....xD.. But outside that wall light is going something problem ... You are scare like he'll ....xD... Hahahah ... Then ...i have to accompany you until you don't scare to take the food to eat ..xD... Hahajah ....so cute loh you ..xD When you never call come ..i was tired me like pig already ... Bit after your call and accompany ... I was feeling very jing shen liao ...wulalal ....xD .... I was ask you ... Why today suddenly come to rawang de ? Come to do what oh? ...xD ... You are told me ...want to see me ... But ... When i had to meet me ... Did you have disappointed? ...hahaha ... If i have to go out on car ... I think you will run away veryvery fast ..xD ....hahaa ... Actually ... Your suddenly come really so surprise loh...xD... But i not really know ...why you will come o rawang to do what de ...>~< ...
haizz ...


You are bring me a lot happy ...smile...happiness ...xD
Never feel alone ,when have you accompany ....
Thanks you baka bbei =)
Hagaga =) ....
we are know each other on the Facebook =] ...
It is 22/10/2010..in the early morning ...xD ...first is chat at the Facebook prevent message ...
then you ask me to give ....you number ...
Haaha ...feel lonely ...
And have to chat before with you ..xD...so ..i give it already ....
Hahahah ...
Thankies you alot and alot ....


By,
Fenniko =} ....22.15 1/11/2010

一场梦~

30/10/2010 3.30 分。。。
此刻。。。我的心很痛...
我发到一些很不希望 会发生的梦！
我很后悔，当初这么赌气，看死你不会去找。。
所以给了我朋友的号码给你。。。
但。。。原来我输了~~~~....
我最害怕的事情发生了。。。
无言以对。。。
现在的我。。很害怕..很心酸...很无助...很无奈...很在乎.......:'( 。。。
其实我会是很自私得人....
我会希望独自拥有你....
所以....
让我知道...让我看见....你在找女孩聊天...我会很在意...我会很不开心.....心情会跟着很很很低落....
我会很容易吃醋....就算我身边的朋友都不可以....
你很厉害~。。。这一点你很厉害~。。。
我从来没有吃醋，在乎的那么厉害了....我怎么了吗？！？！？！！！！
。。。
我不是对你没有信心...
而是我对我自己没有信心....
知道吗？。。。。~
你的性格就是比较好玩....
所以说话也没什么分寸。。。(请原谅我用这句字眼)
。。。
梦里的那一目....弄得我不舒服....
到现在是没有停止过得在我脑海一直不停的重复。。。
也使我哭泣了。。。
因为害怕很讨厌在次有这样的经历。。。。！！！
=C。。。无助~.....…..........
如果这一切会是真实的话...
那.....我.....承受的起吗？.....='(

haizzzzz~。。。....

我会很愚蠢吗？....
去喜欢一个不爱我的人....
却有一个爱我得人....我不去爱他....==....
对不起....
或许这就是所谓的返坚吧....haizzz ....
Suan ba ...
我知道你不会得了 。。。。。。。。。。。。。

你的一封发错信息...
你是否知道...它的后果。。。呢？。。。
这不是一句没关系就可以隐盖的事情。。。
我会非常的在乎的。。。
你知道吗？ 。。。。海~~~~~~~~~





4.50AM....
By,
Fenniko~*~*~

facebook wall~*

你要知道~
如果我真的什么都不写在facebook wall 里。。。
那就代表~
那时候的我真的什么都不在乎了！
你会害怕？你会担心吗？你会在乎吗？
.....
因为我不会亲口跟你说我不爽~
我会暗示~
不过暗示令你不了解~
那我就会在facebook wall 里写出....
如果你还是不明白的话~
我真地会很失望~
我真的再也不在乎了！
....
每次我都很心软的去弄回你开心~
其实明明不是我的错！
但~
我还是傻傻得去找回你聊天~( 我就是这么笨的人！！！)
我多希望...你会比我早一步来tam 回我...
但~这一切的一切都只是我的想象~
你没有！
你从来没有这样做！！！　
我也是个正常的女生！
我也不是这么的坚强！
我也是需要人来疼！！

你明知道我最讨厌被盖电话的！　
为什么你还要这么做？！
我真得不能忍受这么多次的！
每次不开心的时候！不爽的时候！
最终！
我还是假装你去＂哈哈＂的写在你的信息里．．．．
其实我真的在想～
我真的有必要这么做吗？！！！　
我一直在问自己！！！　
为什么我要这么傻！
我真的不明白！！！！！　

baka !~*

哈哈~
最近不久前~ 在facebook 又认识了男生~
不错咯~
聊得来~
不过有时候真地给他气到我~
haizzzz~ ......=X ..........
无言.....>,<....

有时候~常弄到他无聊~或很闷~
。。。真得很对不起~
我一直的试着去把它带回快乐来~
原来~ 这个学问~是这么的难~！
我体会到了~
但~
有些无助了~
....
还以为他开玩笑的说要别的lenglui 电话~
我想了很久很久~
想是否要给他~
...我以为他不会打给他的~
但~
最终....我输了~！！！
我很多的以为~
但~一切的一切都输了~
也因为这样~
我知道自己在不爽了~
小气是因为吃醋~ 小气是因为在乎~.....
。。。。haizzzzzzzz~ ..........
因为他真的打给他了....
。。。。
我更气了.....
难道我可以怎样吗？！

真的是！！！

不爽你为什么真得这么在乎样子？！
........zzzz ~
现实的男人~
这句话真的没有错的~！
永永远远都不会忘记的！
....
如果真的说~你看到个胖的女孩..
你就不要吗？!
。。。
有时候...真的不知道你那句真..那句假！
因为我真的不是那么聪明的人~
我不是每一句话都分辨得了~......
我会很小气的。。。
我玩不起！对不起！

我可以很确实得跟你说！
我现在很不爽~！！！...
....
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz~!!!!!!!!!!

算了~
我再次的把电话关机了。。。。
但~
不到5分钟~
我开会了~
开心的就是收到你的信息~
真的~
其实我很容易满足~
你不必做太多东西~
我只是希望你的一封信息...一封关怀~....一封想念~
我真的只要这么简单~
就可以逗回我...=) ....

笨蛋potato!!!!

泪已流了....
就只好假装没这回事了~
做回原本的我吧.....
不想歇露什么....
只是想发发气....
不求什么了~。。。
哈哈哈~

一切就hahahah 的带过吧....
hahahhahhahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahah~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one week ~*

One week ....you give me one week time to ....
One week time to see our ....feeling .....
If that just is a ru guo de people ....
That one week can to be test it out .....:~)

haha ~gomennasai~*

很抱歉~
刚才有股冲动。。。想说~
把这个blog website 的名字改掉~
但~
最后~
我改回来了~
因为~
我不必那么做~
自己有自己的事情~

那一切是属于你的就是你的~
不是你的就不是你的~
我不会勉强~
其实~只想说~
闷了~孤单了一段长的时间~
就是想找个人来想念~
哈哈~
真是愚蠢的念头~
。。。。。

在我单身的时候~
没有真正的确定的一个对象~
我还是可以说是花心的女孩~
对不起~
但~
如果...真正的有了个稳定的男友~
我会全心全意~去专一吧。。。
这就是我的奇怪想法~
对不起~
我就是这样~
。。。。。。。。。。。哈哈~。。。。。。。。。

还记得我说过的舌环吗？
...舌环是因为我不想遗忘~..........
但~
它不能戴给我永远~
我会拆下它的一天的~
............
今天同事也是在问我的~
当我以后的男友带我去见家长的时候~
看见我的舌环，就一定会觉得我是个坏女孩之类的~
所以~
我在早前~已决定，在我拥有未来的另一半后~
我会永永远远的拆下了~
别担心~
哈哈~
。。。。。。



即将19 岁的我。。。。
有什么好稿作呢?
。。。。。。。
正在向着。。。
我的 birthday ， christmas ， new year 2011 ，......好如何度过叻？！ 。。。。
不可以待在家！！！
birthday 这一天是星期4 。。。我会拿假~
不会做工的！
所以会连续~连续~再连续~
做么我会这么说呢？
就是>>>> agong birthday 在星期6 ....11 dec ....so ~ 星期5本人休息~所以就会连续2天没有做工了~
>>> my birthday 在星期4...16dec ...so ~ 星期4~5。。。再次连续2 天了=)
>>> chistmas 在星期6....25 dec ...so ~ 星期5~6咯。。。。哇哈哈哈~
还有的就是>>> 01/01/2011 @New Year 2011 ....也是在星期6 的.....again ~ ....


( 每一次的生日都在期望说~16...18...20 ...这里面~希望有个半陪我度过...
这么久以来~我永远都是一个人度过的~
要不然~最都都是 family or friends only ~ never have a different ............x.x...=X...)
想说有个伴~....
然后找一天去genting 倒个数....之类的~
就是不像一个人过了~....
haizzzzzzzz~

但~
自己却不争气~
敢敢飞车 在 temple park 飞 120~140km/j ...整条黑暗的路~ 追着 honda 'city'/?? 2188去。。。。整个路程一直跟着他尾去.... wahahah ~ 也因为我赶时间~是非常的赶的那种呢...
对不起~。。。。。。。。。。我不顾人生安全的飞....对不起~
却不敢驾车上genting 去。。。。
怕怕~！
.................
好啦~
今天去chooi lee 的wedding party ....
闷到我~！！！
 huhuhuh~
一切就这样过去了~
真的过得很快很快了~
2010 就快要过完了...>,<....
也经历了不少事情~
感谢一切~。。。。

还有还有~
最后~
想说的~。。。。
昨天拒绝了个facebook里的一位男生。。我拒绝给电话他~
xD ....hahahha ~
这么久以来~
在facebook~
我给过~。。。。。。。4个人~（2 干弟弟，2各朋友而已。。。那2位弟弟也失踪了...hahah, 而且我也删除了他们的号码）。。。。
在我的空的时候,...我就会开始对我的电话做大扫除了....
wahhahhahah~ ........
好了~
12。55分了~
是时候睡觉了...=) good nitezzzzzzzzzzzzz~

by,

Fenniko =P

wulala ~ 15th of oct ....liao ~

haizzz ~
have a 14days never update my daily blog already ~
thinking back that ..
never have some especially things to going on lah ~
just to boring past the 101010 especially days only ~
alex have to find me out at that night to drink tea ( its SUNDAY)
but ....
my stupid phone line had the problem again ...
after the date , next day ...
just received his message to send to me ..>,<....SHIT ~!!!

so ....
i just waste the date of ....101010.........
...next week 23th oct .... is my cousin Chai Lee weeding party of her ......
but ....i cant to go be the 'sister' for her ...
cause i have to working on that saturday morning ~
sorry ~
cause ...the mostly i just can take that 3 hours leave only ...
otherwise ....i cant get full allowance of oct.....
sorry ~
but ....
you also have a lot friends lah =)

i will be go on the friday & the sunday wedding party of yours =)
congratulations ya =)
stay happiness ....=) hehe ~


tomorrow or next friday i will be go dye my hair to be brown ....or gold brown ....or brown red .........
heheheh~
love BROWN alot ..... wahahahahha~
............

blablabla ~

生活中的五个球

http://www.xbxf.net/Article/ShowArticle.asp?ArticleID=15947
几年前在某个大学的毕业典礼中，可口可乐的总裁Brian·Dyson说了一段有关工作与生活中其他事物间的关系的话。
想像生活是一个比赛，你必须同时丢接五个球，这五个球分别是工作、家庭、健康、朋友以及精神生活，而你不可让任何一个球落地。
你很快就会发现工作是一个橡皮球，如果它掉下来，它会再弹回去，而其他四个球：家庭、健康、朋友以及精神生活是玻璃制的，如果你让这四个球其中任何一个落下来，它们会磨损、受损甚至粉碎，而一旦落下，它们将不再和以前一样。
你必须知道并在生活中设法求得平衡，但要怎么做呢?
不要认为你应该与其他人做比较，这只会降低了你原有的价值。因为每个人都是独一无二的，因为每一个人都很特别的。别人认为重要的事不是你该列为遵循的目标。只有你才知道什么最适合你。
不要将贴近你的心的人、事、物视为理所当然的存在。你必须将他们视为你的生命一般好好地抓牢他们。没有他们，生命将失去意义。
别让你的生命总在依恋过去种种或是寄望未来中逝去，如果你活在每个当下，你就活出了生命中的每一天。
当你还能给予的时候别轻言放弃。只要你不放弃，就有无限延伸的可能。
别害怕承认你并非完美。正因如此，我们才得以藉由这脆弱的细丝紧密地串绑在一起。
别害怕遇到危险。正因如此，我们才得以藉由这些机会学习勇敢。
不要说真爱难寻而将爱排除于你生活之外。最迅速找到爱的方法就是散布你的爱；最快速失去爱的方法就是紧紧地将守着你的爱不放；维持爱最好方式就是给它自由。
不要匆忙的过着你的一生，那匆忙会让你忘了曾经到过哪里，也让你忘了你要去哪里。
不要忘记，心灵的详和是来自于感恩。
不要惧怕学习，知识是没有重量的，你永远可以轻易的带着它与你同行。
不要漫不经心地蹉跎光阴或口无遮拦。时间与言词两者都是，一放便再也收不回来。
生命不是一场竞赛,而是一步一脚印的旅程。昨天已是历史，明天尚是未知，而今天则是一个上天的恩赐：这就是我们为什么称之为PRESENT（现在）的原因。...

好久都没这样正正常常的在此写日记了~~~~

好久都没这样正正常常的在此听着抒情歌来写日记了~~~~
好久都没有这样的感觉了。。。
谢谢你 :-)
自从从你哥哥口中得知你的好消息，
心情总算轻了些。。。
虽说我没有从前那么爱你了。。。
不过，
关心你的心。。。依然还在的。。。
谢谢一切保佑他 :) 。。。

也很开心的。。。这个月以来，
终于今天给我做到个想好的sales ...
But ...i know i still can't get the target on this month ....
But :) ...
I never mind it ....;D

。。。
很想找回恋爱的感觉。。。
很想好好去爱。。。
很想找个依靠。。。
很想找个人依赖。。。
很想找个人撒娇。。。
很想。。。很想。。。很想。。。真的很想。。。。。*~*....
很想现在就就有一个。。。

但。。。。
自己却不争气。。。。
没人来爱。。。也找不到人去真正的爱。。。
有个他来爱我。。。。
但 。。。他却不是我想要的。。。。
人是没有十全十美的 。。。。
但。。。我还是接受不了他。。。。对不起。。。。
勉强的在一起是没有幸福的 。。。。
你我都知道的哦 。。。。。

这段时间也去喜欢/爱了几个人。。。。
但。。。。
一切都不长久。。。一切都只是一瞬间。。。。
不是我不要真正去爱。。。
是他不要我的爱。。。
不管付出了多少在他身上。。。
他却还是一样选择离开。。。
我不会生气或讨厌你，就这样离开我 。。。
因为这一切都是我自己选择去付出给你。。。
。。。。。。
希望你能真正去爱个人吧。。。
不要玩下玩下了。。。。。祝福你 :) 。。。。

在你身边女孩那么多。。。一定能填补你一切的寂寞了 。。。
谢谢你 。。。。

加油。。。你我都要加油。。。。吧。。。。。
找个敢敢去爱的恋人吧 :-) 。。。。


在此刻。。。
眼睛是没有哭泣的流下眼泪。。。T~T



Fenniko ~*

I'm sorry Mr Alex ......

I'm so sorry that i reject you again ....
Just now 11++ ...(i think ) ....
You are calling me ...because you said you want to change number liao ...
So ...you want to use finish your credits ....
So ....
You said you want to call me ....
I thought you had nothing especially thing to told me ....
i just thought that just a normal call and a normal talk ....
Im sorry ....
You ask me from the second call that you call ...
>>芬，我有个很没礼貌的要求。
( i never had to think that happen ....so i just ask he told log ....)
OMG ~ ! ....
He are telling that ...
> can you become my girlfriend ....? ....
( the moment ...i was empty on my brain ....because i never think that... although the last time we have to broke out ...i really thought you are forget me and finding a lovery now.....but ....yuan lai ...i was long ... i really dunno want to give what answer to him ...........i was weird weird at there .....im sorry at last ...i was reject you ....
But ....you trust me. ....
You are not a bad guy ....you are a very gentle people .......
But ....i can't to accept you ....because of some problems ...
Im so sorry at this problem ..... ) ....
At the call .....you are asking me so many time....
But ....
At last ....i also reject him ....
Im so sorry in this reject ....
I not a good girl that you thinking ....
Real me is not a stronger girl ....
Im a very dirty people ....im sorry ....
But ....
Really think for you treat me very very well ....
You said that time we love that 3 days you still are remember and you said ....you know that is your fault .....because we are very quite at all ..
And you are unless to caring me ....
So ...at that time you are starting to change your self to be more caring me and talking more ....
Always non stop to said those funny thing ....
Make the moments with me are not boring .....:-) ....

Alex .....
Really thankfully you a lots ....
I saw that too .....you are changeing.....
Really really very thankfully you are the special caring on my life .....
But.....
Something is no feeling ...is no feeling de ...
Something is can't to be force ....
Im sorry .....

I think i will be no accept a boyfriend can't to stay by me always ....
I very like to keep tight contact with my bf de ....
So ...
The some 1 problem on here loh ...
You also saying that ....when you are busying on your work or job..... you will be forget everythings ........the 1 point.....

You telling me .....that you like a stronger girl ...won't get worry from her ....and she can take good caring to her self .....that this all point de girl ...you loving it ....
So ....you THOUGHT IT ...
You thought im the 1 stronger girl ....

But ...actually .....
I never be that ....
I not that you thinking that strong ....>< ....

You said ....
You are happy to handout with me ....
When go out with me you are very happy at all ....
Ermmm ....this point still agree too loh ....:) .....
Cause you are the 1 like to talking funny thing ....
So i agree that i also happy went out with you .....

........blablabla ....

However ...
Im sorry ....i reject you ....
Thanks for you everything .....really very thanks Mr Alex .................

不知道为了什么~*

不知道为了什么而爱上你。。。

不知道为了什么而生你气。。。

不知道为了什么而讨厌你。。。

不知道为了什么想离开你。。。

不知道为了什么而想念你。。。

不知道为了什么而想起你。。。 

不知道为了什么而陪伴你。。。

不知道为了什么失去控制。。。

不知道为了什么不舍得你。。。

不知道为了什么想哭泣了。。。

不知道为了什么想对你说。。。>我们不要再联络了<...

不知道为什么我有这样的决定。。

不知道是不是我在次爱上你。。。

现在不受控制的我~开始着生气的心情。。。
对不起我身边收到我气的人。。


今天的我很没心情做工和一切一切。。。。
每当我不开心。。想出去都找到Mr Alex ....
不过今天的他。。。与他朋友看戏去了。。。
他不理会我了。。。
我无阻了。。。
身边朋友都不理会我。。。
其实我不在乎了。。。
已经习惯了。。。。


但~
心情总是提不起来~。。。。
总是停留在 EMO 心态。。。。
很无奈。。。很无助。。。。


很想出去兜兜风。。。
自己一个人。。。流流浪浪的。。。到处走。。。
我想。。。。如果我没那么心软。。我是否还会在此地写着这片心情。。。
我这样做到底对不对？。。。
我真得无法想象。。。 我会走到这一步。。。
想说断绝这段关系。。。
但却不舍得说出口。。。
其实我喜欢他什么？。。。我爱他吗？。。。喜欢他吗？。。。


他从来没有做过让我感动，心动的事情。。。
他没有一样吸引到我。。。
他曾经做了很多事情令我很讨厌他。。。。
 但是我却愿意付出一切。。。。
这是为什么呢？！？！ 

我真‘犯坚’ 明明知道他心里有别的她。。。
明明知道他不会爱我的。。
明明知道他会伤害我的。。。
明明知道这一切只是一瞬间的。。。
明明知道他会离开的。。
明明知道他不是那么简单的。。。
明明知道自己身边还有个更好的男人。。。
但。。。
我却痴痴得在 等。。。等。。。等。。。。
但我却再等什么呢？！？！ 
我真的不明白我自己。。。。
我却只是痴痴的在付出。。。 
痴痴的退让。。。
痴痴的喜欢。。。
痴痴的原谅。。。
痴痴得。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
真的不明白~！！ 真的不明白！！！ 
想离开了~
真地想离开了。。。。~***

hello ~

hello ~ ......
so long didnt come my blog here ~
so lonely at here ~ .....
cause here is the secret diary ~
....
so ....
my life now is .......happy ? sad ?  ......ermmm~
i think it is mix mix ~ ...but mostly is the sad i think ~ ....& the temper of angry .....
i'm sorry ~

i cant to control my self anymore ....
.haizzzzzzzz~


last thursday  9/9/2010 i had to buy my lover Phone ....ACER LIQUID E at the lawyat ..=)
wahahaha ~
happy ~ cause a lot functions .....
no matter what that i want .....
i can find in the program & straight to download ....
very very fast & easy ....
that's the point i like its =) .....
...............

finally .....
i had waste alot money on that day ....
at the least we plan to go Full House ...
but ....planning is fail ....sorry T^T ............



=================================
yesterday had a movie with Alex & p4 .....
Resident evil .................xD wahahahah~
i cant to imagine i will watch about that style movie xD ...hahaha~
...but the movie no bad de lah ~ ....
unlike the ending only ....
the ending not a ending ......
you know what i meaning ..xD hahahah~

.............actually ....
we want to watch the movie of Pirahna ..........
but ....we each other ..had to heard it from our friends say i really ...=X ..........
so we some scary .... then ....fail on it loh ......
hahah ~
at least we choice the resident evil loh ....xD hahahah~

when reach home is around 2 i think .....xD .....
then ....had a out with ky .......that is 2nd time .....=.=''' boring .......
then go back home sleep at the 3 .......wahahahah ~
no really tired at today de lah hahahahha~ ..........


and a happiness thing is mr T & ms J 1year anniversary at tomorrow ...
congratulation to them .....keep in always ;) .........=) .........
[[[ know it at mr T fb wall ....hahahahah]]]


& i ....is still are the single And available ...xD ..hahhahahah

winson is find me at today ...
he had a 'long' time didnt find me ....
he are coming back rawang at 1st of month i think .........xD hahahh~
actually i know it very early ...
but i never post it ..& told its at here ....

weird relation .............is the last time ma ? ...........
haizzzzzzzzzzz..........idk ........idk .............idk .......................idk .............



....................
this friday have a beauty fair of BeautyExpo at KLCC .............
wohooo~
wont miss it .....
i will be there at this friday with angel ....( maybe) ......=) =* .............
..............

okay ..........
tomorrow malaysia day ....PUBLIC HOLIDAY yahoo~!!!!! =D ........
had to OFF tomorrow ....
so will be go out with ivy , ruby ,& mei .,,,.....hahahah
shopping time ....MEGA SALES leh ................
cant miss it too ........
but ...i will be control ...........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good nite zzzzzzzzzz

by fenniko........

open the eyes ....looking on all thats ~

....remember ~
open the eyes ....looking  on all thats ~
when i doing something that ...i never open my eyes ~
why har ?
it is because i unlike it ? no enjoy in it ?
or the person problem ?
or i scare ?
i really dunno ...haizz~
i'm so sorry ~

you never change ~
but ~ ....i not looking force on your look change ~
....hahahah~

almost lover~

I never wanna see you unhappy.....
I thought you want the same for me.....
Goodbye my almost lover....
Goodbye my hopeless dream....
I'm trying not to think about you.....
Can't you just let me be?.....
So long my luckless romance....
My back is turned on you....
Should've known you'd bring me heartbreak....
Almost lovers always do...........~


....
i feel so missing him right now ~
原来我想念他了~
我享受那过程~
害怕再次喜欢上他....在此无法自拔....
我害怕感觉的出现~
不过~.....我感觉...''它'' 已出现了................>~< 
我没有完全害怕的感觉...只有一点点~....
但~.....
我知道....这一切都不长久的~
你会离开.....你一定会离开.....
你不会爱我的~.....
你不会喜欢我的......
 i know all feeling of you ~ .........
u cant to lie me at all ......

i know .....
that is not a longer relationship of us ..... 
that relation . most longer ...is just no more than 1 hour on us ~ ......
i know it ....
i know its all ~!!! .......
but ....
i still will choose the way to go with you ......... 
that is because .......................
i still have the feeling LIKING you ....
i'm sorry ~ 
that is should not had to problems at  ..........


no matter how ~ ....
YOU never will know it ~ ...... 
even if you know that what i thinking right now ~ .... 
you also never had any change on your mind ~ .......... 
cause you still have a lots pretty girl's de friends is waiting you go back with them .... 
waiting you back to him at your college lifes ............
they are really very pretty ..... 
i cant to VS with them .... 
i never want to VS with them .... also ......
cause ....i know .....
i 'm the Greatest opportunity to lose .............


cause ........
your heart never belongs with me .........
....you know it too ....
dont pretend anythings again ............
just do it ....
never have any feeling on us again.......... please~* .........

if you can ...
if we can ....
just leave each bother far far ago ............... 
that's a mostly GREAT choose of us ........................sorry ..........thanks for you everthings ........

>>>>now ....i really feel want to moisten my eyes .... T~T ........<<<<<

do you know what that means ? .......

...


missing somebody right now , 
Fenniko <3 ..........................








#############################

..however ....

after we meet .....

the mostly important on my mind is ....your message .......... 

although ....is just a simply message you send to me .... 

i also can be happy back & feel warmly ... 

not matter what you write to me ..... i also can be happy de ...

you know ~ 

i hate that after meet ...you never have send a message to me ......... 

i will feel very emo at that moments .......... 

i think ....i really too caring at all  .............

i'm sorry ~ 

>~< ............ 

crazy Fenniko~!!!

at the friday 3/9/2010 .....
i had off day today....
& i was went to shopping alone ~
drived my ViVa ....
go to lawyat ....
( actually ...i ready to but the phone of Acer Liquid E ...
but ..when i reach ...there have out of stock ,... i had to find whole shopping mall ....
also cant get those i want ....BAD CASE T^T .......... so will be go on next thursday 9/9 )
after find my phone ...
then go to sg.wang walk around ...
hahaha ~
boring dao ~~~~~~~~~~~*
after leave there ....
and start my next planed ....
Ikeno ....

i had to walk short cut to go wangsa maju ...after use the MRR2 to go Ikeno ....
went to buy my things ,,,that last few days i saw that all ....
hahahah~
i had to buy ....sunglass of VINCI ...
shirts of PDI .....3 of RM 50 only ...wow ~ MEGA SALES mah ~ xD hahahah
then ...had to buy a earphone at THE CURVE there ~
.....
i find around that all shopping mall ..also cant get my acer phone T^T ...
how sad ...haizzzz zzzzz~
..........then ....
went to IKEA to buy pillow & somethings that i want ....
wahahah ~
time is running so slowly ...T~T .......
start to feeling boring at all >>><<<<...haizzzzzzz~ & moody .....haizzzzzzzzz~

time is still early ...
so ...went to 1U alone ~
just walk around there  to past my times ......
hahaha~
at least ....i find those all the shops ...old & new wings also cant to find that ACER PHONE ....
haizzz~

then ..
had went to a shop all is sell the items of toys ~
the time ....
i started to be emo ...& missing HIM ......
AND i scold my self ~
why i always walk so faster at all ?!
why cant to be slowly to looking things of beside me T~T ......
i wish ~ ...i really hope ...the next time i not the alone walk around here again ~
should have lovely BF accompany me ....T~T!!!
haizzzzzzzzz~

then ~ had a dinner alone at the car .....
eating the wasabi ...like eating the tomato sos ....xD 
around 6 .30 i think ~
cant tahan at all T.T .........
go back from 1u ....
'fly' at the high way ....... 140 km/j .....xD
but ~
had to be slowly some times lah ~
..........................

after reach Rawang still so early ~
& i waiting HIM reply my message ~
he said he still on his way coming back home..........
cause i promise with him meet at that night ....
but ....
after that ...i had airplane him~
cause i feel very very moody & emo ~
scare will bring him down ...
so  .....i reject him at all ...
(( sure ...he sure no accurate me at all ....haizzz ...sorry loh )))

then ...call to ask alex they come out had a tea loh ~
and i have waiting at McD ...i think 1 hours +- .....
wait he shower ....fetch friend ..... blabla bla de .....
then ..changed the place to station 1 loh .....
and i had to waiting at there around 30mins +++ i think ....
haizzzzzzzz~

then get the sms from HIM ....
mood be get up more loh ~
............but .... at least ....never had meet with him at that day ............

after had to the tea until 11.30 ....i think ~ ...........
then went go back him sleep loh ..............

the day i crazy ~

all my friends is asking me ..
why i so dare to go shopping alone .....
haizzz~
friends .....i NO CHOICE loh ~
cause no people had to free to go out with me .....T^T .....
i unlikely to stay at home de loh~ ............................
hahahhaha~
nitezzzzzzzzzzzz guys ~

love you <3

no need to click in ..thanks=)

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game

http://www.techradar.com/reviews/phones/mobile-phones/acer-liquid-e-704309/review

Persistent ~ *

have a movie night at yesterday ~
with a & p4 .....vampire suck ~ it is funny only ~ haha ~

he have a lover now ~
when i heard that ....
my heart some pain feeling ....
i'm sorry ~ i know couldnt do that ~
it is DAMN ..........SUCK for me!!!

when he is around on me ~
i never trust him ~
but ~ when he have a lover .....
heart is ust come to pain ~
what the FUCKING i thinking !>!?!?!!!!
it is couldnot be ~!!! couldnot be~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

at that time i just keeping pretend smile at all ~
i cant stay it happy ~ i'm sorry ~
i very selfishness~!!!
i could not be that ~
cause .....
i not really very loving you actually ~
so .....
that why i dont want holding you ~
& some time will avoid you ~
because of ....dont let you think too much on us relationship ~
otherwise~ ....i will be BAD GIRL again for you ~
i'm sorry ~

 i wish you happiness with the lover now you have =) <3 ......
gambateh ~

when you telling me ...
she are scare you & unhappy you come out with us  ~
that is the time to leave you far far ago already ~
ｙｏｕ　ｋｎｏｗ　～.....i cant selfhood to holding you tightly ~
i'm sorry mr alex ~
you just leave me ago ~ please  ~
that's a very goood choice for you ~＝］
...............................
if not the especially things i have ~
i never will find him come out again ~
or maybe have the especially also dont go to find him ~
please ~ ! dont disturb him ba ~
sorry ~ that is good choose for us ~
thanks for you always so trust me ...take good caring for me ....sayang me alot ~
& loved me ~ thanks you ~
you are really is a gentleman  ~
but is me dont know how to trust you ~

sorry & thanks ~ alex ~ *

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnLRZAQjW0M

must be concentrate to think it ~...

Contract ~ * 

First sight, the feeling heart is 'Do not sign' 

The second to tie up their own. Pressure

 Third there is this necessary?

.....
but ~ 
at that few days....
i had to concentrate to think about this case ~ 
would i sign or not ~ 
....at the least ....i never find the conclusion out ~ 
...........


cause ....
i really dunno T^T..
sign or not sign ~ the different at where ? 
after 1 year ..or ....within the 1 year ....what problem i have ? 
if i resign ~ where should i go ? 
what should i to do ? 
after the 1 year ....what i get ? or what i want to continue ? or what ????


penetrate deeply t think ~ 
had the 60% want to sign up the contract ~ (( soft heart)) -,-'''
.............


maybe.....1 year ~ very fast pass it gua~~~~~~~~~
i really cant imagine ...if i no working at here ...where should i to go to work jor ~ ...
so ~ ...........
maybe ~ .....possible ............~ ...........
i will be sign up the contract for 1 year ..........................................*~~*

what the Fxck~!!!

what the stupid case that i had /....=.=.///....
today had to OT until 8.00p.m ...
when i leave my company & find my shoes to wear ....
how that i guess it ...
i had LOSE my shoes ....
mathefuck!!! who that take my shoes hand BREAK!!!!

lucky i had shoes at car  ~
but ~.........~
haizzzzzz~
heart pain  lo!!!!
my shoes no a expensive ~ also not beauty ~
why want stealed my shoes leh ?!
just a NIICI jek wor ~
haizzzzzz~ what the FxCK!!!
haizz~!!!!
if i not mistake ~ the shoes is RM 90 +- de leh ~
buy at Time Square .....
haizzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
high heel !!!! black colour !!!!

no matter my shoes is get STEAL ...or ...people TEASE me ~ .....
that people sure have no a good future !!!!!

 ?!?!?!contract?!?!?!

...
some ''bad news''?'' for me ~
today ~
like normal after work have to send webmail to my boss to say all about the appt weekly ~
....
inbox (1) .....<<<
feeling like no well ~
after open it ~
i never imagine it in my life T^T.....
haizzzzzz~


is she ~ (boss) ~ webmail to me ....
to say about the contract to me ~ how good is it ...& have alot benefit to me ~ increase basic ...blalbabla ......

but ~...........>,<..........
lolzzz ~
i dont want contract lah boss~!
contract is alot stress !!!
i cant stand it on ~
................TxT


i know ~ is 1 by 1 to give resign letter to you ~
i think ..you are worrying i will be next to pass up resign letter to you ~
but ~
secret secret talk at here ....
i need money ~ wont leave here 1st de ...=)

ahahahhah~
but i want increase salary lah ..><...TxT..............haizzzzzzzzz~


haizzzzzzzz~
after see this mail ....whole people like moody TxT ........
i also dunno what's going on to me ~ ...
haizzzzz~


haizzzzzzzzzzz~!!!!!!!!!!!


however ~
i wont sign it lah ~
this is my conclusion ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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meaning ~*

A good at getting along with people who, 

wherever you go,

people will think that is difficult to get along, 

get along with anyone fusion!

 Self-motivation is to create a very important part of success. Fully prepared in advance psychological preparation, then that one go forward toward success.!

 If it were not for their work, how carefully worked hard? In suitable employment, is equally delighted to do. If you have not found it to find out as soon as possible.!!

Do not just think and "similar" to get along, we should learn and "alternative" people to deal with, as long as trying to change, you can experience a new outlook on life and fun!

 Both on, the internal and external, good relationships are important to success prior preparation, inevitably, when you need to give good returns ~

Friends and enemies, has never been absolute and eternal, and form a friend, to strengthen their power, thinking, creating more wealth for others and the chance of success oh~

[Angry is to punish their own fault of others. ] Always [obsession] other people's [bad], in fact, most suffer their own minds.

Concessions in order to bring people driving force of progress, to go about, but will make his face a significant loss, in the process of starting up in business learn to be tolerant.

Tolerance, means understanding and accommodation, is a catalyst for interpersonal fusion is the bridge of friendship between the fastening agent, tolerance can be reduced to friendship and enmity.

Unaffected false, there is no intention of emotion, is [sincere] the nature of such feelings can only truly touched each other, get each other's identity. 

True friends, there is a pure feeling, this feeling more than the family to understand people. 

 

i like people touch ( mo mo) my head ~

do not say too much ~
just Mo Mo my head ~
every things will back to normal ~

really ~if that no bigger problem ~
because of i like people i love that he touch my head or kissing my forehead ...=)
feeling so sweet & well =)
LOVE ~~~~* <3





no matter what ~
now ~
i always focus in this  phone >>>>>>>>>
Acer liquid E informationsssssssssssssssss
have a lots function  =)

cause ...
if i just only buy this phone ~
i can save money ...no need to buy GPRS again ~ LAPTOP (1st,maybe will buy it SONY!!! ) ~ camera ( 1st , maybe will buy DIGITAL!!! )~ & .....blablabla ~
hahahah~
a lot functions of it ~
that phone in side have  Internal 256MB RAM, 512MB ROM, WIFI , GPRS , Facebook and Flickr integration, A-GPS, Digital Compass, Flash Lite, Document viewers (Word, Excel, PowerPoint, PDF), Social Networking Apps, Google Maps.....5.0 Megapixel,+++++++++...

so ~.....
that's why i love it so much ..............
the only 1 phone ~ like a computer ~ have the word .....power point blablabla ~~~~
omg ..........

i cant wait la><...........
but ~ 
still need to consider ......cant to impulse on all things i do ~ ....
SAM SI ....after just to do ~ ..xD hahahah~ 
if not ....
i will be waster ALOT ALOTS ALOTSSS money again ...><'''!!!..........

have a look to PC fair on coming this friday at the KLCC =P ............
enjoy ~ 

any comments about this phone ....
please leave comment to me =) thankies ~ ;) 

more about Acer liquid E <<<< 

are you safety now ? ~

1.37a.m 2/8/2010 now ~
have to see you online at facebook chating list ~
but ~

i dont dare to go to find you again ~
i hope you will find me say that you are safety now & tell you are settle the things ~
i hope that ~ i really hope that is ~ ........>,<................~

c&p

For every day that there is sunshine, there will be days of rain,
it's how we dance within them both that shows our love and pain.

 

People are not disturbed by things, but by the view they take of them.

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.

Friends,Reach for the stars,even if you have to stand on a cactus !

Sometimes,life is hell when we are about to give up

Good fortune shies away from gloom.
Keep your spirits up.
Good things will come to you and you will come to good things.

Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

 

 Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. 

So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.

I wanna go back to when your parents was the only people you ever kissed. 

When disney land is the best place to be. 

When people didnt change..your friends were the same. 

You could run to mummy everytime you get frown. 

No hurt,no pain,no fight,no vanity...only laughter. 

When everyone always lives happily ever after.♥

 

 

Respect is something you give others,and they gave you back. If they dont,leave them none 

Life is unpredictable.Things may not turn out as hoped.Life isnt a rehearsal,live as it were your last.

i really not your imagine that Strong ~ 
i just pretend ~pretend ~ & pretend only ~ 
actually ...i'm very fragile ~ ....






 

useless~

i realy feel my self so useless >,< ~ T^T~
manythings i also cant to do ~
ｊｕｓｔ　ｇｅｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｏｍｐｌａｉｎ　～
haizzzzzzz~

what i doing on its ?!~
just repeat everydays something to do ~
sales also no more than where ~ just everymonth less than last month ~
haizz~
every end of the month just waiting salary ~
no more thing to let me to do ~
feel really use less T^T
haizzzzz~
what also dont want to learn ~
what i want to do wor ?!
why i dont want to learn it leh>!!!>?!?!??!!?!?!

fenniko ?! are you alive ?!
why dont want to learn?!
that's the problem ...that's why my salary never glow ...you know?!!!!
haizzzz~

please lah ~ fenniko?!!!!!
wake up & have a clean brain to think it please ~!!!!
fenniko ~
RM 700 is cant alive after that ~
still need to installment of car !!!
you need to do manythings & the DESIRE ~!!!!

please add oil on it .....
& just Put Chut Hui ....to do its all ~ learn it all ba ~
．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．
ｈａｉｚｚｚｚｚｚｚｚｚｚｚｚ～　＝）



actually ~
am i really love this industry of beatician ?~
i will answer it my self ~ i'm NOT ~
but ~ ....
other ppl to asking me this questions ~
i will be say ~ YES / okay well~
......it's myself to pretend i very like this industy ~ & hypnosis myself to love it ~

cause ~
i everydays is asking my mind ~
what i likely to do ?!
what subject that i like?~
what industry i should to do ?
if i not working in company ~ where should i to go & to do what ?~
sales girl？！  promoter ? saloon ? or ??? simply clerk???

i really dunno what i can to do if i resign this job that i working now ~><~
people ask me ~
if have the chance ~ will you go back to study now ?
but ~ what subject should i to go study ?

last few days ~have a chit chat with friend at old town ~
we have a lots conclusion about manything ~
1st is the Form 6 ~
all of form 6 is cause their dunno what they need to go college study & get what subject ....
their no really objective ~
so their are goes to study in form 6 ~

2nd & 3th is cant to share out ~
cause ....
that is very hurt & i must get  COPE ~ ....sorry ~*

Foretime

the things is past very long times ~
but ~
i know the happened they still had to said ~
cause .....
that's a very bad REPUTATION for me ~....

but ~
maybe ...i mistaken their thinking & their talking......

haizzzzzzzz~
AGAIN .............i thinking too much again .><.

unfair ~

hello ~ｔｈａｔ　ｗｈｏ　come to visit my blog ~
please leave your webside of your blog too please ~

share mah ~ dont PRIVACY at there oh ....

i know you are coming ~
please lah ~
unfair loh ...if you no leave it at here ...><~

1 week ago......

Had the 1 week ago...
I never hear more about your news from you ==
how are you now ?
Are you safety now ?
Is settle the case already?........
i'm sorry..... Miss ♥ ....



....************......

had to message him to ask how about him again ~
today 29/7 12.31p.m ....he just reply me ~

conclusion is ~ ...his dad is dont want help him  ~ ....
..............
no more chating ~
because i also nothing can to help him ~
i'm sorry ~
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,...............................,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

$$money$$ T^T

haizzz~
i also dunno why i using the money very very fast ~
i also dunno it where i use to >,< ......TxT

HEY fenniko~!!!
from next month start! no waste MONEY PLEASE~!!!!
bank bank BANK~!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ ....~

////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

dreaming ~ always is dreaming ~

///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

i think ~ it is going normal to me ~
when you never reply my message ~
i never be mad ~
never be emo ~
never feel sad ~
just sometimes have the feeling to worry him is okay everythings for him or not ~

i have the feeling ~
he still evade the DAI 2 LONG now ~
．．．．he still never can find ppl to help him ~
haizzzzz~ ............

i really hope he can as fast as to settle the cases >,< .........
GOD BLESS ......please~~~~~~~~~~~~

...............

my life now is normally ~
sometimes boring will miss him & worry about the case for him only lah ~
but miss him no going to sad or mad la ~

maybe ~
i will give up its soon ~

i never know when we start & end relationship of us again ~ ......
thats very weird things to us ~
he never mind it ~
& i also giving up its ~

i will be blessing at here to bless you everything of yours is fine ...~* <3 .............

ｆａｎｇ　ｄａ　ｔｏｎｇ　＞ｓｏｎｇ＜

when i nothing to do ~ my brain is thinking of you ~ *


i'm sorry ~
i had missing you ~ 

that day ~ ...19/7
is time to asking you the is truth or you evade me ~ 
at least the day ,....you never reply me & answer my call ~ 
after the day ~
20/7 ...
you had to reply my msg ~
you say you are safe now ~
living on your friend house ~
okay =) ....
after ...you told me ....your dad know the happening of the gambling & that you lose how much on its ~
is DAI 2 LONG find to your home ~

you told me ~
your dad said >> he dont want you this son already ~ <<<
..................=X .....OMG ~

& i ask ,,,so ....
how you now?
you have evade it until forever ?
& i ask ...the girl can help you ? (((the girl is have help him before , is a rich girl )))


after this message ....
you never reply me until now ~ >,< .~




i feel so stupid that all dai 2 long ~
never think it ....he still is a 19 years old boy ~
you thould he had a lot money to give back you ?
you thould his parents is very rich ppl ?
you cant to control that LAN DOU YI ?!?!?!


100k leh!!!!
no a smaller money .........
100K <<<= RM 100,000.00 leh~!!!!!!




=.='' haizzzzzzzz~
i also cant to help you ~
><
i'm sorry ~


& please lah ~
if you really can past this BAD case on you ~
please treassure your life ~
& become good boy ~ add oil in your study ...future ..~


god bless you >< ~~~~~~~mermermer~*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubl8ecTnzVQ

difficult ~

.....
i'm going relax my self now ~
are tellling my self do not be EMO anymore ~
.....
is going keeping the smile at anywhere ~ =)

.........................



kenneth ~*
you never find me ~
you NEVER~!!!

you never call me ~
you never sms me ~
you never tell me you reach where or doing what ~

i also dunno what you doing now ~
............

people say ~
when your lovely have any difficult ...should be he side to support him whatever anythings ~

ｂｕｔ　．．．．
i never do it ~
cause .......((( i also dunno )))

maybe ~ ...
i thinking about that ...>>> i call you ~
i also cant to help you what ~
ｉ　ｃａｌｌ　ｙｏｕ　．．．．
i also dunno want to say what ~
ｉ　ｃａｌｌ　ｙｏｕ　....
i just will nothing to say ...& just keep quiet to hear you what to say ~

....................
if you miss me ~
....you will call me & find me ~ ....
but you never find me ~ that means you not miss me & ...
you ...maybe ....play until forget me ~
or .........
maybe ........you evade me ~ ..........
or ..............
maybe ....................maybe ................maybe ..........................*

i'm really sorry ~
i never have that lot money to help you ~
．．．．．．．．．．

i'm really sorry ~
cause ...i really dunno what should i say now ~ .........

feel i so NOOB now ~＞＜～
i'm sorry ~ to talking all that SHIT things ~ ..............*

#############################################################

some 1 is birthday today 19/07....xD

hahaha ~

i NEVER will forget him ....hahahah ~ ..............

............any surprise for him this year ? ....

ermmmmmmm~ ...........dunno leh ........................................*

23.00 17/7/2010 ~

23.00 of 17/7 ....
you have to find me ~ .....
you had to call me ~
 ....
that is because of my message to send to you on 8p.m more on 17/7 ....
i asking  you where are you on the message that i send to you ~ .....

after all i posted on facebook & blogspot here ~ ..
when i really to sleep ~

you are calling me ~ at 2300.....
but ~ ....
it is a ..........COMPLICATE....

you told me in the phone >
you had to lose in genting CASINO around 10k / 100k ......
.....=X .....i speechless ~!!! i really REALLY SPEECHLESS this time~!!!
......
i though you will be change back your self to be good & all~
dont want go to gambling anymore ~
is you promise with me ...at that time ....
when we go back have a relationship ~ .......

but ....
now ~ ...you~~~~~~~~~~....=.=''''...
OU MY GOD ~.....................i really nothing can say to you ~ .....

the 1st word i answer the call you telling me that you lose how much money in the casino ......
....after that ...i not asking you why lose it or what ....
i just ask you .....
WHY?! ....why you no got a exam on thursday ma?!
why you go to genting again ?!~ ...huh!!!!

you never answer my question ~.....
you never answer until off the line ................~!

you just always to teeling me ..you lose a lot money ....
& say you going back your hometown ....& then ...follow your friend to your friend house at the IPOH ...
for evade the DAI YI LONG .....


what the hell you doing now ?!!!!


i really nothing to say on that you lose a lot money .....


gambling is really will make you DIE very very FAST ...
.......>,< ................
you know?!?!?!

i really dunno what to say to you ....
the happening is passing ....
you cant to change anythings of that ...


you dont want to let your parents to know ~ ....
but ~ .....
what can help you ? & who can help you ?!




you know your parents will scold you gambling & all~ ....
why you still want to go ?!
you though all that gambling also will WIN only ?!
DONT be idiot please ~．．．．．．
ｇａｍｂｌｉｎｇ　～　ｃｈａｎｃｅ　ｔｏ　ｗｉｎ　ｉｓ　ｈｉｇｈ　～
ｂｕｔ　，　ｐｒｏｂａｂｉｌｉｔｙ　ｏｆ　ｄｅｆｅａｔ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ＬＯＷ　ＡＬＳＯ～！！！！
 ...
you know ?!!!!

last time you soccer gambling lose around 20k ....
you parents also scold you like HELL ....
now ~ ...
the 100 k ?!!!....

how to settle it ?!

why ar why?! .....

.......................................
i dunno you are lie me or truth of its ~ ....
when you say the DAI YI LONG is calling you ....
but ....
we talking the time ....the phone is never have " dudu ~ DUDU ~ dudu ~".....
never had it ......!!!
are you lie me ?!
are you playing me ?
are you  seriously it with me ?!
are you evade me ?!

please lah ~
dont use the NOOD reason to evade me ~!

....................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but ....if it is truth ....i really hope you can as fast as to settle this problem of you ~
& guai guai to go back study ~ .....please ....bless you baby ~ ............................*
....................................................................................................................................


today ....
dunno happen with me ....
i never have a good mood to working ...& go out with friends.....
i'm sorry ~ ...
i always keeping the emo face to.... face my friends your ....
i'm sorry ~......

talking also no mood to say anything ....sorry ~ .><.~ ....
emo day ~ today again ~ ........
....................................................

Do not know when to learn to let go ~
 Do not know why I forgot how to let go ~

feel tired ~>,<~ to care about its ....~

feeling very tiredy now ~
feeling sick now ~
whole body is warm like HEEL~><~

is about 2 & more days ~
your never contact me ~
i thought you will miss me & find me when you go back your hometown OR reolad your phone ~
but ....
you never do it ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i disappointing AGAIN~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

where you going ?

that day ~
you said you had to exam on thursday ~
okay =)
i dont want disturb you on that day ~
i just have a message to you to wish you add oil about its only ~
ｂｕｔ　～
you never reply me again ~
okay ~ ..........
fine ~ ...
i dont mind ~ ....

i just think the positive way ....
thought you no money now ~
so ...
when you go back your hometown will have a contact to me ....
.....................=X speechless on you~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really really ~  hate myself ~ ....
why want thinking of him?!
that i said ....i no love him alot mah ....right?~?!!!!!

why ~
why i want to thinking on him now?!!!!!!!!!

huh?!

aizzzzzzzzzzzz~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay ~ fine ~~.....
Gamble with myself ~ ...
if today ~ 16/7/2010 11.59p.m ...
you still never find me ~ ....
the relationship of us ..................the anythings of us ~ 
will be GONE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that meaning you EVADE me ~

this all is not me bad to you ~ 
is you making your self bad for me ~!!!!!

not my fault ~ 
not me unfeeling ~ ....
dont BLAME ME ~!!!

i dont mind about lose it ~ i just mind about the PＲＯＣＥＳＳ～＊

i dont mind about lose it ~

i just mind about the PＲＯＣＥＳＳ～＊

...............................

i try it ~ when you sleeping like a pig ....i asking you wake up~
but you never answer me ~



when i said >>>;your friend calling you ~!
you are wake up as very very fast & find your phone ~
....
i never think the negative....
but~

is you making me to think about that ways ~
.....TxT
>when you sleeping like a pig ~
i feel want to take your phone & have a look ~
but ...
i never do it ~
cause i believe in you ~ .....
but ~
..................
at the least ~
you making me disappointing ~
.......................we are becoming ~ very strange ~ ......
i dunno what is the wrongs with us ~


but ~ ....

you also have the same feeling with me ~ .....strange ....haizzz~
I close my eyes and think about his appearance ~
I would like to also think of how he really looked out ~
All memory of only one piece of ~
No matter how put together can not be a full account of the fight back to the way that his look~
My mind ~
The only just know ~.
Oh ~ this is his eyes ~
Oh ~ ~ this is his mouth.
This is his nose ~
This is his hair ~
only that memory i have ~

...........
i always asking myself ....
am i love him?
or just playing with him ?
.............

>the other 1 ...mr A ....
he treasure me very well ~
cause when i unhappy ~
he always be my side ~ must will find me ~
must will ａｐｐｅａｒ　 infront of my ...
anything that i feel unhappy~
he must the one ..the only 1 i will be talk .....
that i never tell him ....the other guy presence....
also nothing can tell~
cause that he also never can help me anything that i should want to do ~
............=X ................
i know....the relationship of Kenneth ...is going very very soon~
we are very strange day by day already ~


......................
i just pretend nothing on here ~

because .......
>i want the say B.O is you ~ no me ~
last time ...when i said B.O to you~
you was were to MAD ....

so ~ ....<
i just pretend .....
i know ...very fast ....that you will feeling it negative way ~
i know ....you will be say it .....

sorry kenneth again ~ .......................................*